A formula machine
A bassinet that slants and rocks.
A diaper station.
Materialism saves our ass.
2. Night shift :
Night schedule is going pretty good but nothing is set in stone as was learnt last pregnancy. There will be tailwinds but for now the pattern is reasonable sleeper at night and morning. After lunch I have a crash and he also is restless. Evenings also have a bit of that.
3. AI:
In my pursuit of learning AI I did one day of 9-5 after waking up at 7 and having a decent sleep from 8.30 pm along with night shift.
AI learning is very superficial right now, some labs, some coding but there's more structure and thought needed, but I'm happy for showing up and absorbing what I can. Agents, sub agents, loop / sequential agents. Tools - pre built, langchain, custom. Maintaining state.
Deploying agents / mcp is left to do.
For now it's just good to be in the space but I'd eventually like to be confident with implementing pipelines and ml.
4. Outside of night shift :
We try to have dinner early and get to bed early, which is great.
Any cleaning before the night is done helps before the morning dread. I like having morning for things that make me feel good like learning. Rat takes the morning shift - taking care of z , baby and my breakfast. If I go to sleep early enough I might be able to do part of the morning shift too. Today that's what I did and I pulled off a 9-5 albeit with a crash in between. Maybe that's a continued possibility.
5 to 8 is maybe nap, z bath, dinner and bed.
5. Red tape
Rat's progressing with it. I have a bunch to get to , maybe tomorrow's 9-5
6. Selling stuff
7. Walks
8. Rat spends time on video games, a little on studying. I'm hoping his time gets more organized and he lands where he would like to productively.
I spoke about my wishes for where I'd like my career to be and he made a statement about how he'd like to support that. That kind of statement is rare from him. Mostly I've learnt it's best to not expect and work with low expectations but hearing this was a moment - a slight kick to the day.
9. Mental Health
My antidote to bad mental health is having healthy distractions which I am actively working on. I do have dips and some crying - they mostly come from monotonity and tiredness - which we are trying to counter to the best of our abilities.
There is also the weird thoughts - the weird old regrets , the weird arguments I have with people that I don't even talk to in real life but in my head triggers go off and I'm burning with passionate anger making entire conversations with them. These need to be countered.
The other antidote I have is exercise , but ironically with the tears I have I need exercise , but optimally low to build strength without causing repair.
10. Rest of the week
- trying to keep the pattern going,
- eating, sleeping, moving / walking
- one more course / maybe some extra learning.
- hoping Rat gets time and energy for something more than video games when he does get time
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